they're like a 3-inch play-doh volcano next to a towering cliff of reality

that was a dumb analogy

i saw kevin last night, it was good. i felt like a main course instead of a side dish. that wasn't what i was going for, but an improvement over the past couple of years.

we split a pomegranate and i anointed my face and hands with red stain in a snooty public place.

it's really hilarious to me that all those kids who used to go to third place all the time have sworn off of ever going there again.....but now they all go to some other place and do exactly the same thing. it's not built on an Indian burial ground, guys. it is my wish that

i am really, REALLY disturbing myself with the enjoyment I am taking from listening to "redemption song" and then "thuggish ruggish bone" back to back. this is a similar issue to that which i have with eminem. i really want to see his movie, but i don't want to give him any money. why does someone so talented have to have this complex with violently hating people? this is one instance where i wish folks talked the talk but did not walk....etc.

then tupac and biggie never would have died, and i wouldn't have this stupid "thug life" tattoo on my back.

i made my sister a *sweet-ass* hot shit CD. she'll like it if she knows what's good for her.

so i haven't heard from brian in a while, not that i mind but i do care. you know what i mean. i would have thought he'd be all up on some computer. maybe he's building one in his sinister laboratory...

um, anything else....monica and HER MOTHER are staying at my apt in asheville right now, which weirded me out to begin with, but then right after i gave monica the key, gabriel informed me of the presence of her brand-new christmas present hello kitty dildo WITH VIBRATING TEDDY BEAR OH MY GOD THAT'S FUCKED UP that she had placed RIGHT IN THE FRONT WINDOW so that monica's mom could get all freaked out and spend time puzzling over how weird we are. it's not weird to have sex toys and it's not weird to display them proudly, but most people tend to hide 'em when mom-types enter the battle zone.

and a hello kitty dildo is just fucked up, that's some weird childhood issues dragged into a sexual background, and that's just not right.